Why, oh why?

Now I sit back at work wondering why I made this blog.

Is it because I want someone to be on my side?

Is it because I dont really have anyone to talk to?

Is it because I want someone to tell me things will be alright?

I just don't know. I do know I love my fiancee' very much despite the pain she puts me through sometimes. She says she hurts those she feels closest too, and she has gotten much better with the way she treats me.

Maybe I am just crying out for advice and help? We will have a stupid arguement about every other week and she said, "I am getting tired of this." We have always worked things out in the past, and I am sure I am the cause of at least 90% of these fights. After talking to her when I got to work I found out that she was hoping for a good-bye kiss when I left, but I left angry and I am usually the one that wants closure. I'm such a screw up sometimes.

I am trying to be better, but it isnt always easy when two people are still learning about each other. I don't know if I am even making any sense anymore. Maybe someone out there can tell me I'm not insane, just a typical male. =D