A new poem I wrote at work

I wrote this because my fiancee and I are having some SERIOUS issues, and I dont know how much longer things are going to last, much to my regret. :(


Happiness Challenged

You always ask for space,
No matter what is the case.
Your wish I respect and obey,
But my thoughts I can never say.
My feelings to you matter not,
Lest there is something you want.

Only you consume my every thought,
But me to use you only sought.
Everything I am I gave to you,
My heart on my sleeve for you to view.
But no matter how hard I tried,
You only ever made me cry.

I have risked everything,
I have asked nothing,
But only that you would show,
Your love for me to never go.

I have much love to give,
I have a lot of life to live,
For like the ones in my past,
Your love too did not last.

Is there something wrong with me,
I have no idea what it could be.
Am I too nice and caring,
Maybe too affectionate and sharing?
Do I demand of a love to much,
That I am denied happiness and such?

All I want is someone to hold,
Someone to snuggle when it is cold.
A love who will always be at my side,
Our happiness together we both try.
But I demand of a love too much,
Thus am denied happiness and such.

I might someday set this to music....I really dont know right now. I am not able to think straight anymore. :(

(c)2005, GNB, A.K.A. Merryc Xavier O'Donnell